DELAY,MA

 chill -lah konon, setelah sekian lama tidak mengupdate benda ni , aku tiba tiba terpanggil pulak untuk mempost luahan hati lagi. memandangkan interval masa post ni dengan post sebelum ni lama, so, memang banyak cerita yang aku ingin sampaikan (kot) .

        Pertama, Alhamdulillah, aku masih bernafas sebagai student, walaupun assignemnt menimpa bertubi tubi, dan sekarang aku hanya tinggal lagi 2 minggu sebelum final exam, which is time ni lah assignment berpusu pusu menerpa rutin kehidupan lalu menggubah olahan jam biologi aku. Study for exam tu memang tak start lagi lah, sebab aku percaya 90% of my classmates did'nt gives any fucks on studying for final yet. Yang paling merisaukan aku adalah subject language aku, language aku agak lemah memandangkan last sem kelas aku macam haram, Lecturer macam ajar tak ajar je kitorang, or aku yang sendiri yang lembab? Wallahualam. Tapi, trust me, im work my ass on it, aku sedaya upaya berusaha untuk boostup pointer aku, especially for this language subject. pasal assignemnts pulak, how to do the assignemnts tu aku tak kisah, insyaAllah siap, tapi deadline tu betul betul gives us a death la. Kalau bole semua mau submission date tu on the same day, fuck man, who the hell they think we are? robot? but yeah, reality is our gravity, where else we gonna stand other than earth. yep. assignemnt banyak. like hell. and one more things, i hate grouping assignments, i can only considered the great team, i mean the group that have chemistry with me, i hate procrastination, but yea, i did that a lot too, but sampai bila? sampai bila nak kerja last minute? boy, wake up, we grown up, how can we survive in carrier world nanti kalau kita masih keep bersifat macam tu, at least im trying to change my attitude, at least niat untuk berubah kepada kebaikan tu dah kira pahala dah, amin.

     

        Kedua, aku dapat offer untuk sambung study ke oversea, by my dad. the moment that i heard this, i felt like "wow, alhamdulillah, akhirnya" , aku memang bersyukur dapat offer ni, memandangkan bapak aku memang willingly to pay for my study, katanya since aku the youngest, dia nak aku pergi belajar betul betul la, tapi offer beliau bersyarat, yakni aku kena direct sambung belajar sesudah aku setel dengan degrees yaers,hell no man, aku dah pasang niat untuk kerja dulu kot sebelum ni, after i gain experience about one to two years on kerja baru lah aku nak study for master, so ni la dilema aku ni, pergi ke tak? aku tak decide lagi. Istikharah insyaAllah membantu. 

     ketiga, i am falling, yes , i am falling for someone. there's a girl in town that i like, for me so far, she's the one, she got what i wanted , the attitude. I am demanding for attitude in term for a right woman of my life, i am working on it. i put an effort to win her heart now. but , i still in doubt if shes meant to be with me. again, solat istikarah do helps.